Addiction

Shrink and become nothing

pull my skin inside to never touch

harsh wind spun me in circles

which way is forward, how do I know

 

the wind sings to me of comfort and gnashing teeth

the smell of putrid things is so inviting

it's my Virgil through purgatory

 

as we climb new plateaus

I glance downward to see abyss

Virgil shoves me

why am I not afraid

 

pulled into oblivion

I feel a sense of belonging

how long have I been falling

where and when is the bottom

 

I have nothing more for this void

a shell of who I was, who I was meant to be

so I close my eyes to this plunge of desperation

 

behind my eyelids I see a fox

black fur with eyes of gold, green, and blue

a message he repeats to me over and over

only at this time could I listen

I could not tell you what was said

 

opening my eyes to the grass beneath

water collapsing to it's own weight in the distance

light breeze and summer sun kissing me gently

to the calm rest I never knew I needed