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"I'm sorry i can't talk right now"

That's all i wanted to say

But instead I'd ask you how your day was

curious if you were still doing okay.

I knew you weren't okay.

You say your doctor visits are getting longer 

The nights you stay dread by.

I told you to stop drinking your days away

You would always say you'd try.

Even though it was a lie.

Youd invite me over to come say hi.

Everyone said go,

It may be the last time you see him alive.

He never tried so why should I,

Hes a man child he'll never learn,

But i was just a child.

I shouldn't have stand by his side and tell him it'll be all right,

But he's my father,

I should be there right?

Today he texted me he had another stroke,

His heart valve failed and he can't move his ride side,

The strokes and heart attacks are counting up,

But the doctors said surgery was a success,

Am i bad person for wishing it wasn't?

He drank himself to this point.......

Ive been told it's a disease,

But diseases can sometimes be managed or even cured,

So why hasn't he gotten help.......