Hopes and Regrets

At our best...

We were love.

The meaning of it.

It’s embodiment.

 

The truths.

They were obsolete.

Because all we needed

Was each other.

 

I care for you.

Still.

Always.

Forever.

 

My efforts.

If any.

Were too late. Not rushed.

If any.

 

I miss you.

Everyday.

Want to be with you

When you’re away.

 

You’re the only image in my mind.

So I still see you around.

I thought a thing like this would get better with time.

But I’ll still need you.

 

The songs I sing

But never sang.

Ring through my head. My heart.

My heart that yearns for you.

 

Everyday.

Every night.

All the time.

Forever and always. For you.

 

I wish I could make up.

Wish I could do what I should’ve.

When I should’ve.

But time doesn’t rewind.

 

I wish you’d be here.

Wish you’d see me grow.

Watch me become more beautiful. For me and for you.

And watch me wither when my time has come.

 

Sundays...

Our days of rest. Our day of happiness.

Our day of stress.

Our day of fights.

 

Every Sunday is beautiful.

Every Sunday is hurt.

But for a Sunday forever...

I pray for.

 

I pray for Sunday

For Sunday to walk. To talk.

For Sunday to smile. To cry tears for us to wipe.

But if that Sunday comes or not...we’ll find out.

 

The words I say don’t seem to come out right.

But what I mean behind them. I mean them.

I wish I could talk back and reword what I said.

And that I said more while I could’ve.

 

If you could see my thoughts

You would see our faces.

A dream of happiness.

Peace.

 

I pray for you.

I pray for a life so healthy. So sweet.

I pray for a life worthy of you.

Worthy of the gift you are.

 

I dream of us.

Together again.

In love again.

Our problems behind us.

 

But my prayers and dreams...

They’re different.

One that dwells on what I want for us.

And one that dwells on whatever will bring you peace.

 

I fight I make those two one.

Whole. Complete.

I fight in hopes that it will happen soon.

But can you wait as long as I can?

 

I hope the water is deep enough wherever you go.

For you to swim. Be free. With no ground to hit.

Because you. YOU are greatness.

Greatness has no limit.

 

My dream maker

My heart breaker.

Wherever you’re going.

I want to go the same.

 

But do you want me to?

Is what you think what you need really what you need?

Or is what you want what you need?

But you cannot wait any longer for what you want to start it’s course.

 

When was the last time I asked for some help

That I couldn’t get from nobody else.

Nobody else

Because you cared the most.

 

I wish I could get a kiss.

Because I don’t know when I’d get one again.

When I’d see you again.

If you’d want it again.

 

God gave us what we can handle.

God gave you me.

God gave me you.

But what God didn’t give you is the pain I gave you.

 

I pray for a new day.

A new New Year.

A beginning of new found love.

But some prayers aren’t meant to be answered when you want them to.

 

You and I will always meet.

Somewhere in between.

You compromised when you shouldn’t have.

....For me.

 

And I will always pray for you.

I will care for you.

Forever.

And a day.