A hitch and a bump and slowly we move
(reaching for the blade on the floor)
Click-clack, click-clack, a scraping of sound
(running the edge over my skin)
Emotions, exhilaration, flying
(gonna get high off my pain)
Tilting up to face the sky
(laying on my bed staring up at...nothing)
Wind rushing through my hair
(sweat on my body, mouth...dry)
Slowing down as the first drop comes
(tik-tok, tik-tok, blade poised, seconds pass)
The drop of my stomach signals the fall
(metal flashes a gash in my wrist)
Can’t breathe as we plummet to earth
(red runs down my fingers, drip...drip...)
Down we went, up we go
(l laugh as I close my eyes...peace)
Reaching the top again
(Blade ready, another tree will join the forest)
Down
(cut)
Up
(smile)
Losing track of the ups and downs, the twists and turns
(looking down at a crimson mess)
Slowing down, nearing the end
(emotions flooding, tears falling)
Click-clack, click-clack, a scraping of sound
(blade drops, blood drips, both hitting the floor)
We stop
(I fall)
Breathe
(breathe)
Breathe
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Author:
italianwoman (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: October 8th, 2019 23:29
- Comment from author about the poem: I am a cutter. I'm not ashamed of who I am or what I do. Nobody should. Many of us go through things that make us turn to self-harm as a source of relief. This poem is from two different perspectives. The first is somebody who is on a rollercoaster and experiencing the ups and downs of the ride. The second is somebody who is experiencing the ups and downs of life. The two mesh together to create the mind and heart of one.
- Category: Sad
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Comments3
Brilliant, you are a fantastic writer!
Thank you. These comments make my day.
You need to breathe each breathe of hope happiness and know that your life is worth every inch of you..you are special loved and ever so unique and I sure loved by many ..no one has the right to make you feel any less and healing is a much easier game than blood and pain..never lose hope all shall be well🌹
Thank you for your kind words. It is a daily struggle but for me writing is one of my best outlets.
I’m glad to hear that - believe in yourself because u are so worth it and have a lot to give worth living for🌹
You are indeed a good communicator .. your words here are crying out to be heard...
and I feel sure there will eventually be those who read them and who benefit from some of your insights
... Neville
Thank you
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