When Hope is all I Have

Lying here alone with metal to my head,

Listening to the silence, still in my bed.

Fingers clenched, ready to fire...to end,

Hoping for a savior, a loving friend.

To help me... from myself to save me.

Please take the gun! Set me free!

I can’t do it by myself, I’m frozen in time.

Out the window I see the mountains climb,

I feel their power, of such I do not possess.

Lying here thinking, my life I assess.

Waiting... just waiting... for my fate.

Will they come? Or will it be too late?

I’m still here, just waiting for you.

Unclear, unsure, don’t know what to do.

I’d call you, but I can’t seem to talk.

I’m trapped, listening to the stillness mock

Each second is forever, each minute is longer.

The feeling of hope is getting stronger.

You’ll come, that’s what best friends are for.

I can wait... yes I can...just a little more.

Maybe sleep will ease my mind,

Maybe rest will help me find...

A solution, a decision, a tiny gleam.

I’m slipping away in a mindless dream.

Bright lights, loud voices, uncommonly clear,

Feelings arise... they’re panic and fear.

Where am I? Wasn’t I supposed to die?

Am I dead? As dead as dreams in the sky?

A face comes into focus, your voice I think I heard.

I knew you’d come! You never break your word.

You’re here for me, you’ve always been before,

Even when I hated you, didn’t want your help anymore.

You’re here for me now. Please don’t go.

Please help me. Take it easy. Take it slow.

I’m not the person you thought you knew,

But please just love me, no matter what what I do.