At the mercy of anticipatory anxiety, hence...

viz hitted courtesy debilitating panic attacks

 

Upon waiting for vehicular repair

today November 19^th, 2019 at:

CJ'S TIRE & AUTOMOTIVE SERVICES

(1405 S Township Line Rd,

Royersford, PA 19468),

yours truly, i.e. mister re: man

registered lamentable paroxysm.

 

All thru mein kampf inferiority complex

analogous invisible muscular heft did flex,

quaking, hijacking, agonizing...

jinxed irrevocable hex

re: heredity did initially index

courtesy Boyce and Harris,

who begat me

guaranteed, fixed, decreed...

courtesy accursed lex

lucifer mortal christened

Matthew Scott Harris – insinuated

jackknifed, kickstarted, limned,

machined, nixed, ordered... orifex

encompassing hardiest inscrutable

seminal entry point

penetrated zona pellucida, qua Rex

wrought flawed crown

faulty erroneous biological code,

within body electric mutation

fleshed out, I lament

analogous courtesy neophyte Unix

programmer, yes I hedge

to intimate biological event

upon impregnation sent

reproductive juices into action

miracle whipped processes

wielded unbeknownst advent,

whereby subsequent

cell division manifested,

albeit nine months later enfant

terrible asper:in,

this then newborn gent

lo' within zygote,

every generic ingredient

already harbored yours truly

characteristic weaknesses full extent

unbeknownst until DNA blooper rent

birthed, thence as I developed absent

pronounceable kinks vis a vis

trademark characteristics became present

evinced thru behavioral, emotional,

interpersonal, neurological aberrations

costing me (lake dude...) woebegone descent

wretchedness faux forfeiting every moment

only recent (think today)

entire existence misspent

oddly enough even compromising

ability to serve meant

two daughters, (especially eldest)

decry horrible life pent

up with rage against human machine

referring to paternal birth parent,

whose pathetic example rent

asunder psyches linked with offspring

hence, I best ought to have

joined a convent (ha).

 

Twas really only of late,

I realized fuller blown extent

house zing deplorable... state

absolute zero scholastic, tete a tete

opportunistic, generic, athletic...

Homo sapien astride oblate

spheroid devoid of any

marketable skill doth resonate.