Dissolved

I am dissolving
wobbling in and out of my place
Fire and extreme emotions
Just cutting my way
The life I know its not a game so don't say it
I know I play it as if I'm ok and will definitely find my way
But don't try me
As if my pain didn't feel real enough for me to know
As if my childhood didn't just pass me by
Dissolved in the world pool we live in
Dissolving like a man-made lake
overtime that evaporates
Dissolving like a pill in a glass of water
Dissolving my heart in this world of acid
I always try to avoid the river that calls everyone's name
Avoid our weak society
Try not to participate in there foul games
Yet I always end up in my own
My river that runs fast
So fast you hit your head
So now everything seems slow
Slow but painful
You have those moments of happiness
you take it and run with it
As if you took an aspirin and got a temporary relief
But it never lasts
It is never permanent
Not just for me but for everyone
Every day is not a good day

This world pool is no joke
No game
No fun maze to play
Its just Life
It can be used to the fullest or wasted like a candy wrapper with the candy still in it
I'm dissolving and everyone seems to wanna test my rate
my heart
my mind
my lung capacity
my well being
They wanna test whats within me
Yet I try to avoid But never do
Problems come as easy as ABC'S
Everlasting Happiness is as hard as reaching the heavens from this earth
Impossible
You can't be forever happy but you can forever try
to make your life as happy as can be

The goal is to succeed before dissolved
Because everything will test you
They don't want you to last long
You have to hold on to who you are
Make it out of that river before its too late
Because we don't dissolve
We stay Solid
Like my heart
my mind
my lung capacity
MY WELLBEING

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