Beneficence courtesy nonagenarian widower papa

Vitriolic scathing psychological malevolent jujitsu

cruelly, fiendishly, incriminating

lambasting opprobrium rue

teenly dished out to yours truly

mechanically engineered hatred to stew

when passive aggression fostered corked,

where self destruction grew

tens of decades ago, when this then

much younger match chew

Scott doubted, hesitated, lollygagged...,

where in solitary confinement he brew

toxic shocking rancor towards father

and mother peaceful conflict resolution

they did eschew

much preferring hurling epithet laced

expletives out their respective mouths flew

acrimonious, furious, noxious...

which poison verbal barbs knew

no letup, nor elicited any reaction their

once upon a time adorable boy,

where they did view

my welworn, passive,

and inert mooching

their unacceptable hashtagged

ill begotten progeny you

know who, if not (spoiler alert) i.e.

this generally conscientious contemplative

enlightened self anointed guru,

albeit modest rarely

doth he (me) ballyhoo

brutally damning, flagrantly hellacious,

judiciously loathsome in screw

tibble malicious venomous tirades shew

wing no merci, when I long

overstayed welcome, yet feared moo

ving way past the age when most

grown children can't wait to pursue

autonomy, emancipation, independence, et cetera.

faith no more actually never prevailed,

only inculcated self hate

buzzfeeding iniquitous, inferiority,

incompetence, et cetera innate

worthlessness, despite positive feedback

when cute boy, but emasculation did penetrate

availing self as token "scapegoat" suffering

suckerpunches mainly name calling to deflate

an already feeble self confidence early

in mein kampf, I experienced

existential nihilism, and negate

purposefulness to live reinforced

as extremely introverted lad,

whose mien did connate

defenselessness subsequently rain

of incriminating abuse within

central processing unit did infiltrate

giving latitude for destruction to resonate

with suicide fueling anorexia

nervosa to exterminate

one germane measly, puny,

quirky... objective to obliterate

self, though parental intervention

did unfortunately vitiate,

whereby fast forward flickr

of pride did generate

altered states of perception

allowing, enabling, and

providing spirit to resuscitate

analogous preceding childhood's end,

when joie de vivre did dominate

and thy singular life innocence

and naivete didst insulate

glorious ebullient boyhood

I try to recaptcha filial love

as papa doth alleviate

crushing oppressive pennilessness.