Friend or foe

Not ready to surrender to the ether not yet
Have swallowed to much pain so I will wait
Waiting for the anguish to subside because
Of all of ye that did divide my best years, gone

Expected more that which was given never seen
To return, helped you up as you turned your back
Gave you praise so you could talk behind, I was
Your best friend but just in my eyes, let me down

Scandalised my good name did you no harm but
It's all in vain as I am not ready to surrender to
Pain yes alone but I can smile I have my pride your lies can't devide truth which is now known

So I am not ready to surrender to the ether there's
To much strength in my resolve to swallow your
Patatic joke so I spit it back in your face and grin.