What am I to do?

Take an seat loan me your ears an eyes.

the only way people get me is what's in between these lines.

People came and went.

no matter how I felt, no matter how much heart, no matter the time that's spent.

try to get a conversation but no I don't want to vent. 

because no matter how I feel or what is true it don't get realer than this someone has it worse than you.

It hurts to be alone so don't give me hope

its sucks  to fail but I try to climb that rope.

time after time  I fall not giving up if you think imma start the answer is nope. 

No matter who in my corner people laugh at me I'm a joke so if you don't want to be around me I understand.

But one day I'm going to great, everyone will say I knew he was the man. 
 
I am alone and it's time I acknowledge the fact.

it all started when seperation of my family. seperation from my dad. 

but don't get me wrong we all people we have our issues I ain't even mad.

Maybe I fuck up so much cause I figure shit out my own. 

well almost, I had 2 brothers we all grew up with my mother.

the second oldest lost his path said he was treated unfairly so he found a new family one after the other.

ya it hurt but we been back in good terms since then but I would be lying if I said things been the same since then.

Then I find a counter part from the other gender I wear my heart on my sleeve and I was pittyfull use to write love letters.

But shit changes and we learn ore lessons were no longer together. 

In all truth no matter how much pain I hold I fucking love all of you I do yes in different ways but fuck it only way to get stronger is to endure pain. 
 
To all you new people that laugh or get rid of me so quick it's cool or whatever for now but my bottled up shit is making me sick and I'm about to fucking flip.

what am I to do, get a chance to know me. You assuming fucks.