In Between

There are two roads in front of me you know

I thought for sure I knew the way to go

When as a child I dreamt of a traditional life

With a child, a home and of course a wife

That road quickly became bumpy and hard to steer

I felt I was in a fog and that would eventually become more clear

After three strikes with the opposite sex

I decided to steer myself onto a new road that seem to end with even more wrecks

I dated guys that I seemed to bore

My small town ways and my prideful talk about my son seemed dull to them for sure

In 2012 my life was drastically shook

I found it discouraging when walking past a mirror I would look

My mind was sometimes blank and my emotions were numb

I felt I was invisible and my words were just plain dumb

I tried to bargain with God and that can not be done

He understands me fully and knew that I was not having too much fun

I cried and I asked him," Please I just want some peace"

My guilt of always falling short of perfection I want to release

Make me the man you want me to be

Is there a secret message that you are trying to send me

I am not trying to be ungrateful and sound mean

But this is torture when you are trying to adjust to a certain way of life and you emotions are in between