Damsel in Distress

My first heart break came from my youth

He was a boy, I never even loved we were young and he was persistent

He never could tell the truth

It took him five years to leave me alone, I’m happy for him he found a girl that he could call home

My second Heart break came from my one true love

He’ll never know what I felt for him, he was my beautiful secret

I won’t write too much about him, I already did you should read it.

Then there was the one who took it all

This is where I gave up, he gave me the greatest gift with the deepest fall

No I’m not talking about our unexplainable connection

I’m talking about the worlds most unbearable infection

He is tainted with ugly and despair, he made my heart rot

He sucked my soul dry I almost forgot it was even there

But then I felt my heart skip a beat for someone I wasn’t really prepared to meet

For a while he had me fooled

I still think about him and the things he said

I still think about our long talks in bed

He wanted to keep me all for himself, I’m not a prized possession or a sign of wealth

He hurt me in the worst way

He made me feel un worthy

I let him in on every part of me, and all he offered was a spot as his number one house wife

Who knows maybe he said the right things in another life

Now I act on impulse and get my self into the most trouble

I have mediocre nights with guys that can’t even pronounce my name

I hurt people I care about for dim flames

The worst part is I know I’m supposed to care but I don’t you see, my biggest obstacle is me

I’ve never been one to talk or express how I feel

I’ve never been one to go out on meaningful dates

I’ve never been on the search for something real

I’ve never been in the search for a soul mate

There was once a little girl who believed In marriage, who loved watching Cinderella ride off with her prince in their carriage

There once was a little girl who believed in a civil life, having 4 kids and being the best wife

There once was a girl who was loyal and true, I hate to break it to you Cisa but that girl no longer seems to be you

I need a hero, and my first choice should be me

I’m a better friend than a lover so i should just let it be

Not everyone has a someone and this I can say I believe

So for this eternity I have to heal, it will be I myself, and me