I’ll never be enough

I cover it all

so you don’t see the pain

i cover the winces, the sadness, and the tears.

all of it with that smile..the smile you make come across my face..

its just a mask..a temporary high before I go back to my low...

i rise up only to fall harder than you’ll ever know...

i love you and I know you’ll never love me

trying to move on is more than an endeavor

if I move on it feels like I’m giving in on the last thing I was putting my hope in...

like the world around me falls apart and I’m left drowning in Whiskey and Gin...

I just want to be good enough...

but im not I’m just broken

not the person you deserve, the guy whose perfectly tough 

the guy who is mentally sound 

I’m broken and I’m just trying to put the pieces together 

but they always break when I turn around

Your beautiful voice floats into my ears light as a feather. 

they fall onto my heart and weight it down heavier than ever.

you never would know because I put on a smile.

im not with you and while it weighs on my heart and rips at my soul it’ll be like that for awhile.

You’re my everything and you don’t even know.

I know I’m weak....I can’t let you go

I know you’d reject me and I’d lose my false hope and be devastated by the “no”

i fall deep into the dark..falling forever deep between the forgotten cracks 

and What would be the only trace I was ever here? Nothing....nothing but my tracks...