Whispers Of Hurt

Why ya actions constant  pretend.

I’m in pain feelings in end.

Like every day we fend.

To help you realize is us till the end.

Life flashing 20/20 lens.

Flash back to something way back when.

It’s high fashion emotion spin.

Falling down no hands out.

Like I wanna feel wanted while we pop out.

Is that to much for a female to ask about.

Why do you always ignore me and black out.

Feeling way back now.

Stubborn boys always playing us around.

Heart only to be found on the ground.

Even to pick it up, and try another round.

To lurk and peep what you just found.

Head spinning round and round.

Throwing up feelings like a Mary go round.

Mary go round and round.

Been 3 years and a new one he found.

To here it was me not you I can’t settle down.

He said trust me baby you wear the fucking crown.

So you fell for his lies.

Every night tears filled your eyes.

Tomorrow will be better I’ll just make him realize.

It’s me you said you beautiful too.

Why he switched up is a mystery too.

Made me feel so new.

He’s someone I never knew.

Every night out with his crew.

I’m home alone dinner done I made your favorite just for you.

Food sits there to get cold.

Hearts cold, feelings growing old.

I wanna love like a story never told.

You wasn’t who I wanted.

I spent 4 hrs searching my closet.

To look very perfect.

Wanted to make the biggest impression.

I should of known when the first dates he missed em.

Can’t move on, his face buried deep inside.

Your body a graveyard of feelings never again to arise.

Because all guys are the same guys in her eyes.

Because no one has showed a different side.

Lies, cry’s, pain, names, stories that don’t ever end up the way they say.

Like does it ever get old not being able to feel happy cuz he stays the same.

Years and years for a strong relationship.

One that he looks at me when we communicatin.

Catch my drift baby boy, I’m not just toy.

I’m just as normal as the heart you have inside Troy.

But yet you fail to lift me up from my lows.

I feel so close yet the distance is so gross.

Addicted to the things that brought me down.

To never face it and turn back around.

The steady looking around.

Questioning, Is he still even in town.

Why do I feel like I’m such a clown.

The reality of the message going around.

Its the dread of it’s not true.

To hear the words that hurt.

Why is my soul so fucking weak for you dude.

I just want someone to hold my hand.

Walk around the city not dreading the feelings.

Living a reality so pity.

I want the love from the worlds biggest city.

But you stay keep dismissing.

Fly high pretty baby.

But your just not for me.

I have one feeling and hurting is not the visionary want it to be.

Stay away from me, because I don’t need to remember the hurtful memories.

Just stay away and entertain those other females that you cheated with every night. I don’t understand you switched up and that was never my plan.

I’m my head it went differently.

But this ain’t a fantasy.

Your love was a bullet I couldn’t dodge. But it’s a story that cannot easily be forgot.