Drowned

I can feel it again

(You don't matter) 

I'm drowning and I can't go up for air

(Your existence is futile) 

My head feels like it's going to explode

(He just wants your body) 

I can feel every vein pulsing in my head

(No one can help you) 

I'm trying to cry but I don't know if I am

(Your only good for sex) 

My heart is pumping out of my chest

(Your father was the first one to break your heart) 

My skin is on fire and yet I am freezing

(You'll never be good enough) 

My stomach is churning and my eyes are bursting

(My heart is breaking and I'm panicking) 

The urge to breathe is so strong

(I'm tired of fighting) 

No one can see me

(Your all alone) 

No one can hear me but I'm screaming so loud

(You deserved to get raped) 

I'm starting to sink

(Go kill yourself) 

My lungs are losing oxygen

(Just die already) 

I just wanna breathe again

(You'll never be okay) 

I'm so tired of this

(GOD your weak) 

I'm gonna take a deep breath surrounded by water

(Now I'm dead) 

I tried my best to hold on

(But it wasn't enough) 

I had so many people who loved me

(But they couldn't see my scars) 

I had so many amazing memories that I'm grateful for

(But not enough to ignore the bad ones) 

I had so many hopes and dreams that I wanted to see come true

(But nightmares are dreams too)

 And they all came true.