galaxies

I got lost to the point of almost drowning in the ocean of your beautiful blue eyes

I already counted the stars on your skin, 

connected, and named all of them into my favorite constellations. 

I have come to realize that if I ever touch that beautiful pale skin again 

those stars will burn my lonely hands

because of you, it is too foreign to touch anyone else

or even breathe in their air from the smoke you corrupted my lungs with.

you were my world, my galaxy

I explored all of it to only realize you were a beautiful, mysterious black hole 

that will only suck me in to find nothing but darkness. 

I was too busy waiting for my eyes to adjust 

I was getting scared of my mind playing tricks on me

I started fumbling around looking for the light switch so i could see the truth. 

I was relieved that you would send sudden and quick lightning strikes to light up the room

then came your loud scary thunder that shook this foundation so hard 

I thought it would collapse but i learned to measure the amount of space between

so i wasn’t so scared anymore. 

I came to realize those aren’t your raindrops on my face, 

they are the never ending tears from all you have put me through. 

did you put venom in my veins when you kissed the cuts all over my body? 

I would have died from your poison. 

they never warned me love would hurt this bad. 

I was way too young to know pain so unbearable. 

who knew it would be so bad that i would choose to swallow a whole bottle of pills. 

who knew your voice would be the one I craved when i woke up in the hospital. 

who knew the mention of a simple name could paralyze me. 

who knew just a pair of beautiful eyes and a crooked smile 

could make my heart stop pumping blood through my hollow body 

and take all the air from my lungs