Why Isn't This Fake?

JWKP98

I don’t wanna think, 

I don’t wanna feel,

I don’t want emotion to be real!

I don’t wanna know

That there’s stuff I have to accept and let go

If it means never being high again, I don’t wanna ever, I don’t wanna ever feel low

 

Why can’t I just accept what is and move on?

Why can’t I just let it all be gone?

Why do I even have to think about what goes wrong?!

 

Why is reality? 

Why’s it always after me?

Why can’t I just not feel and let it be?

 

Why can’t I forget about up to let go of down so I never have to fall?

Forget about what everything is so I can’t lose it all?

Tear dimensions apart so my back’s never against the wall!

 

I want to know with no reaction, pump the chemicals out of my brain

Better to lose happiness so they can’t drive me insane,

Forget the sunlight so I never have to feel the rain

 

I’ll take apathy forever over for a minute having cared,

I’ll give up joy forever if it means not being scared

I don’t want to feel at all, I just want from emotions to be spared!

 

Sleep my life away

I don’t want to feel for another day!

Misery for life is a price I will not pay!

 

Maybe wrong doesn’t matter if I’ll never be alright

Is that my saving grace in this fight?

To forget the sun if I’m stuck here in the night?!

 

Something has to be done, and done fast!

I’ll give up the future if it means forgetting the past.

What does it take for it to be over, over at last?!

 

I don’t wanna think, 

I don’t wanna feel,

I don’t want emotion to be real!

I don’t wanna know

That there’s stuff I have to accept and let go

If it means never being high again, I don’t wanna ever, I don’t wanna ever feel low

  • Author: JWKP98 (Offline Offline)
  • Published: June 1st, 2020 15:01
  • Category: Unclassified
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