Exhale

As I open my eyes underwater 

After so long of holding my breath I soon realize  

I can't hold my breath any longer 

After I feel to heavy and too comfortable in too deep shall I say 

I now know I must swim back to the top

To exhale the pain I kept in the center of my core

As it flows through my lungs 

I feel a bit light-headed

I feel a bit numb 

So dizzy I stopped swimming to the surface

I start to sink 

I sink lower and lower until it gets dark 

With closed eyes once more

Afraid to open my eyes

Thinking even if I open I won't see anything anyway 

I lost sight of direction 

And lost credence of my abilities 

Lost faith in my decision making

I kept my eyes shut form fear yet

Still I have pain remaining in my lungs

I started to feel like it was the end

I knew I needed to exhale and breathe in

I knew I had to open my eyes once again

I knew I couldn't let the darkness devour me any longer

I had to take a chance of finding my way back up

To the surface 

To fulfill my goal 

To exhale all that has hurt 

All that has done wrong for me

Even the things I felt most comfortable with 

If they pain me I knew I must let go

I open my eyes and swim through the darkness

Not knowing for sure where I would end

Didn't know if I was swimming down or up

I swam to what I believed was the surface only on the strain of hope I had left

I swam until I could feel the air on my hand when I lift my arm above me

And soon as I thought my destiny was the darkness

I felt the air and the sun on my skin

I rushed to lift my head above water

I looked into the sky and exhaled

All that caused doubt 

I have learned so much even though the event pained me

It's not always the end even when you're in so deep

You must exhale what disfigures peace

Do it for you 

I did it for me

Exhale and breathe in deep

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