Impasse to contentment

Just me and mine shadow doth blog

passivity, the path of least resistance oh my dog,

an emphatic YES,

a legitimately valid reason and rhyme to flog

yours truly (figurative emasculation),
thee catchword to hog
immediate attention,
see above named poem title

the best idea to expound upon,
while attempting creative juices to jog

all mein kampf, I felt like a bump on a log

please... don't be hesitant
to identify me as a nog

one aging long haired pencil neck geek

never reached maturity forever a pollywog.

More clearly, plainly and succinctly

one sniveling poor excuse for masculinity,
I continually experience

unrepentant (unforgivable) humility,
hence lame justification
Matthew Scott sought adultery,

which unwise choice attempted
(pun intended) to fill a void

sexual propensity linkedin with precepts

attributed to Sigmund Freud,

though skepticism skirts

barenaked lady hardcore psychoanalysis

downplayed or Oedipus complex

shrugged off (heavier imposition
versus Atlas) fails to bridge any mettle alloyed

within me psyche.

Absent healthy teenage
dating experiences, think tryst
I yearned, trended then
regretted handy dandy wrist

took rat tick antics subsequently,

and compromised spawning prurient dalliances,

hence understandably missed

(until death do me part)

doting upon then young daughters,

rightfully thee eldest one

(born 12/22/1996) still pissed

at primal, gonadal, and brutal predilections

now... finding very little reason to exist

matter of fact I dreamt
(earlier today June twenty seventh
two thousand and twenty), the gist

regarding harming self

courtesy sharp pointed objects
(that string of words

doth hoop fully connive fist

(cuffed) around handles of knife

discounting divorce (from wife)

i.e. remaining uncoupled
mandated eventually note hissed

unbridled love and apology

toward thee missus and progeny

who forever did blacklist

das scribe, how objectionable
now, he profusely kissed

mouth of other voluptuous

(zoftig) older women
(consensually, flatteringly, indiscriminately)

and amazingly enough spouse did insist

to forgive, boot never forget.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

thus very little paternal (filial) love expressed

and she chose to live yonder
Oakland, California her temporary dwelling

no matter, her papa blatantly confessed

YES, more'n his eye did wonder.

At present petty coated junction irreparable schism

doth rank as horrendous on par me adopting fascism

forever sullied image ("daddy's girl")
who once thought the world of me

selfish misdeeds buzzfeeding swelling egoism

no more how enlightened I became

ex post facto, pure unconditional acceptance

refracted light risque behavior thru prism

where primary parental accountability
not satisfactorily explained away courtesy

Darwinism (to seed genes), nor chauvinism,

whereby ever since time immemorial

men disregarded and hardened libido

against marital covenant.