what are we

what are we?

Undefined, unrefined, unsure.

Neither of us ever talk about it

So, we’ll probably never know.

It lacks something I can’t feel,

But I can feel

That you don’t feel it too.

And we can like each other well enough

But does that really work for you?

Without that missing ingredient

Is it really enough?

I am reminded

Of feelings from the past

Those overwhelming passions,

Borderline obsessions.

Were those simply Toxic behaviors?

 Bad relationships?

will healthy relationships

 simply never be enough for me?

Are red flags attractive

Because they incite a familiar feeling

Or because

They are all that is exciting enough

To hold my attention?

Will I ever find someone

Who can fill both roles

Of safe and exciting?

Or am I doomed to choose

One or the other

Only to find

That neither is ever enough?