My Abyss Pt 2

I want to scream yet I hold it in.

Do you want to help?

Even so I wouldn’t let you in.

I’m hurting more than I’ll ever show.

Selfishly, this is a pain you surely know.

Am I trying to be strong?

A question I’m unable to answer.

I’m not sure why I hold on to this,

Bury it deep inside,

I don’t believe you’re less a man if you cry.

Yet here I am.

Head spinning.

Heart racing.

But my eyelids remain dry.