To know what your feeling

Have you been in war with your self and a year later you see your self through?

After that year has come do you wish for that feeling again?

The feeling you once had that felt natural to you, the fact you knew how you felt made you feel relieved? 

Now that it been a year your not quite sure how this thing called life is supposed to feel like on a normal day to day basis. 

Do you ever wish to go back even if it was your darkest times, but to know what you were feeling once again? 

Or is that just me?...