I think it's time that I say goodbye. This thing called life really isn't worth living. I can't do it anymore. I'm living a messed up, sad, lonely, and pathetic life. I've never felt loved. Ever. My own mother has wished death upon me. She's even attempted to kill me. My own father molested me. No one knows but now somebody will. My brother is just verbally and physically abusive just like our mother. There's so much more about them but there's no point... I have to live with these painful memories. I refuse to live like this any longer. I constantly check my phone to see if someone called or bothered to text me. But yet I know good and damn well I don't have anyone. Actually I have just one person. She's amazing, she truly is. Always there for me when no one isn't. I would love to keep going but this isn't about her. Anyways, I would tell her but she has her own life, she doesn't need to get wrapped in my problems/issues. I'm not writing this for sympathy or pity. I'm doing this because if I actually do decide to go through with it... go through with committing suicide, I need someone, at least one person to know my truth. To know the hell that I've been through. I know people have gone through way worse or they're continuing to go through it. I don't want it to seem like my problems are major or bigger than everyone else's. At the end of the day, we're all human beings, we all have problems, we just tend to handle things differently. Like I am right now. Today may be my last day. If so, thank you for taking time out of your day just to read this. Trust me there's so much more I wanted to write but the day's almost over. Goodbye.
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KayDied (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: October 19th, 2020 16:12
- Category: Sad
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Don't do it.
You ae in this world for a purpose, whether you understand it or not.
If you have suffered means that you have a soul. You are more than just a walking organism.
There is a purpose in this cruel world even though it doesn't seem so.
You are a child of the universe and you deserve to be here. . what you wrote shows that you are capable of loving, and therefore worthy of receiving love too. There is love waiting for you, somewhere, somehow. keep searching
Today won't be your last day
and Tomorrow need not be the 'First' of your 'New' day's...
You have demonstrated enough insight and imagination in your write to exemplify that deep down - you know who you are, you know who you want to be and you know enough of the why's and how's that convoluted your mindset - enough, for you to reach-out and find a format for seeking solace, even if only from within: initially.
You will survive today, like you Will survive tomorrow and You will go-on to reach out and help another, like you helped yourself with this write.
I look forward to reading your next write and I envy those hard earned quality's you exemplify, with each line you pen!
'At the end of the day, we're all human beings, we all have problems, we just tend to handle things differently.
*Like I am right now.*'
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