I wish

I swear I've been dreaming

That you didn’t die

That I’ll wake up and this was all a dream that lasted way to long

You were 17 and it wasn’t the plan for us to end up like this

I remember how you were to this day

I only remember because I miss it

I miss you

I miss you midnight calls talking about nothing and everything

I miss your red hair that I thought was just orange

I miss your stupid jokes that shouldn't have made me laugh, but it did

I miss you

I miss that you understood me better than anyone else

I miss that your heart was mine even if it was temporary

I miss when all I ever needed was you

I miss you

I miss when we were 13 and we knew nothing about relationships but we tried to make one work

I miss calling you, knowing that you would be there

I miss you

I miss how you talked

And lastly I miss how you loved me even when it was hard for me to love myself

And For that I thank you

And now all I have to miss you by is our memories

But I wish that one day

I could call you

And you could answer

So I can tell you how much I miss you