Joker44’s Side – Over...but Not

If only it was different;
If only time would reset itself;
If only I could start over somewhere else;
If only....

I would become a teacher;
I would give Love and Knowledge Instead;
I would radiate Light Through Books up to this date;
I would....

This is madness;
This is too much...different than it should have been;
This is too much...different than what I had seen;
This is....

I accept myself...as I am now;
I accept myself also...for what I have become;
I accept myself because in a way...I have won;
I accept....

This Life...is not that different;
This Life is still beautiful;
This Life is still Lovely and Wonderful;
This Life....

I Still Love...The Joker;
I Still Love and Believe In...God;
I Still Live...doing the good things rather than not;
I Still....

This Poem is...unusual;
This Poem is unknown to me;
This Poem is not by my intention to be nor to see;
This Poem....

- Joker44