Experiencing emerging adulthood stage while inching toward being an old geezer

 

Me, an aging baby boomer

long haired pencil necked geek

burning, depleting, using... fossil fuels,

thus a global nonrenewable resource(s)

repentant consumer

admitting heavily trod carbon footprint

additionally deeply enmired

within very late adolescence,

 

hence I shriek

with utter dismay

starkly aware personal hygiene

suffers direct hit

grungy kamikaze pilot

courtesy this groomer

cause I shower once

every fifty second week.

 

All joking aside,

I recognized (after therapy session

on November twenty third

with Ms. Renee Cardone),

how deeply entrenched,

albeit psychologically,

and emotionally yours truly mired

as grossly immature,

especially where role

of fatherhood concerned.

 

Hormonal secretion superseded rationality

when call of the wild

pronounced irrepressible urge

to unleash pent up

testosterone laden gunnysack

bursting courtesy the dutiful sentry

 

courtesy yours truly

experienced heat of the moment

able, eager, ready,

and willingly poised to strike

think totally tubular

warm prickly fleshy appurtenance.

 

Reflection upon helping beget

"star student" and shayna punim

two darling young

twenty something daughters,

though living social on their own

the former a resident of Oakland, California

the latter calls Bend, Oregon

 

home sweet home,

whose lives still impacted

when both girls

wantonly, relentlessly, yet mercilessly

buffeted courtesy deplorable

home environment within which,

 

neither parent gainfully employed

(both hobbled by mental health issues)

additionally progeny unfairly

spent impressionable years

under roof in squalor and filth

at 1148 Greentree Lane,

 

inviting Montgomery County

children and youth services,

which household (severely cramped quarters)

adrip with clutter

(generations worth of Zison precious heirlooms

substantial number of antiques)

majority relegated to the dumpster.

 

Thine eldest offspring

long since being master of her domain

continues to cite decade plus years

(perhaps even a dirty dozen)

as source of present psychological woe

at present still in throes of double whammy

 

woeful loss of paternal grandfather - Zayda

who passed away October seventh

at age ninety one

in quick succession,

she sadly bid adieu beau,

he absconded back to Puerto Rico

(his home/mother country)

without rhyme nor reason.

 

Impossible mission to decipher kismet

particularly what appeared as promising

relationship betwixt our lovely lass

and boyfriend, whereby

she found herself high and dry,

 

yet saddled with deux

capricious, garrulous, mischievous,
oblivious, rambunctious, vivacious...

tortoise shell mottled kittens.