Heavens door

I caught a glimpse of Heaven on a moonless, inky night,

Satan at my heels; triumphant at my plight,

His skeletal fingers probing each recess of my mind, 

Gleeful at my misery at the horrors he did find, 

Seeking out my memories for the source of my deep shame,

Numbering my failures; condemning; appointing blame, 

His deadly scythe he held aloft,  his intention plain to see, 

To take my very essence for all eternity, 

But as his blade descended in its avaricious flight, 

There came at once a staying hand borne on a shaft of holy light, 

From the perilous edge of oblivion that hand now held my fate, 

And into limpid water my body was gently placed, 

Looking up in wonder I espied a sight divine, 

An egg of splendid silver in the water crystalline, 

A thing of awesome majesty; archaic and all knowing, 

Gossamer tendrils at its poles and on the tide were flowing, 

Reaching into my very soul they soothed my hurt and pain, 

Seeking out the wounded child that within my body reigned, 

And all at once I felt a peace that stilled my deepest fears, 

That took possession of my being and spilled over in my tears, 

A love so pure it caught my breath; its purtity divine, 

Abiding through the aeons; constant and sublime, 

The secrets of the universe whispered in the breeze, 

A choir of angels voices brought me to my knees, 

Harmony with nature; understanding of its call, 

Enlightenment and knowledge of the one and of the all, 

And as I wept so softly; broken and alone, 

I heard my name uttered as the shepherd called me home, 

I stretched my hand to meet his so he could lead me on, 

When in my mind two faces flashed and all my doubts were gone, 

My heart and soul were given; I belonged in the mortal realm, 

And whilst the choice was mine to make I'd always come back home, 

So slowly I descended to the depths from whence I came, 

Returning to my hearts blood pulsing in my veins, 

Though sadly did I leave that plain wherein lay the Holy Grail, 

The place where Heaven waited, beyond the Empyrean veil, 

My place is with my daughters to guide them on their way, 

To love them and to protect them until my dying day, 

But in my heart remains the hope that when my days are through, 

That once again I'll be immersed in those waters clear and blue, 

The memory of the love and peace that touched my very core, 

Will one day end my suffering as I pass through Heavens door.