countless little heartbreaks

he’s just like the others

i counted his dna

each strand that might’ve slipped away

i chased after and kept

i chased

i chased

it’s so difficult when you don’t know what love is

so you freefall

within a month at least

i’ve had countless little heartbreaks

 

an attack on my pride

with a clone of that guy

the type to grab my hand and take me to a forrest

then when my back is turned

leave without explanation

and take away all the trees

plaguing thoughts to fill the space

 

i’m getting so ill

i think it’s a sickness

with each claw at my heart

i become weaker

more vulnerable

and more desperate

i start sleeping with men who’s faces i don’t recognise

they blur like tv static

 

and the worse thing is

i’m conditioned to love it

the more you take, the harder i crawl

the louder i beg

‘take the glory i possess for you, i’m yours eternal’

i don’t check to see if you hear

i’m as consistent as the scratches on my skin

i’m like the claws begging to be let in

but instead i give everything

and you take everything