Chemicals Collide with Thoughts

I was just happy, but then I get that sudden rush and stunning pain

My chest tightens as my heart is wrapped up in a chain

Chemicals collide with thoughts, knocking them off course in my brain

Anxiety fuelling too many thoughts going too fast to read, I am going insane

I swear I’m fine one moment, but the next, a thought I did not think races through my head

In fear, I cower deeper into the blankets in my bed

I’m not going to break I promise myself over and over in dread

But in this downward spiral, my vision is going red

I feel fine, in control, I’ve explained away the pain, up until 

I’m in the moment and begin to feel ill

My brain collapses, I can’t think, next thing I know, if looks could kill

And I said something that attacked the heart, my tongue turned into a drill

One moment, I have an umbrella and bear no mind to the rain

The next, I cannot swim, by the flood I have been slain

Hit my knees, I’m fighting this in vain

Before my own mind, I feel like a timid elf before a mountainous giant, I’m going insane