evangalinefrances

Scared of myself

Dear anxiety,

I'm scared of myself, you've done it this time you over analyze things you make me overthink you push people away and then I feel like I have no one! Why are you doing this to me? Why do you hate me? Speak to her, speak to her, speak to her you press repeat in my mind every time I step outside! You remind me I can't wear certain things because you don't want me to look like that because people will look but why do you do this to me? Why can't I be like her she wears everything she wants and she looks good. You tell me no everytime you wobble my confidence so it's undetected by any part of my mind so that there's no trace of confidence in my walk, in my voice and in my eyes. I just want to know why?

Kind regards

Me

Comments5

  • heatherbee

    Such tortured words it's so awful to have anxiety my son does and I wish he could express in words at times. Take care.

  • Goldfinch60

    One of my philosophies in life is:

    "This is me, take me as I am, if you do not like it that is your problem not mine."

    Maybe if you apply this to your anxiety your own confidence will raise to the surface of your mind.

    Andy

  • orchidee

    The anxiety of doing a thing can be worse than actually doing it. Sometimes the anxiety wins though, and we don't always do what we want to do, or need to do.
    Really, people are going about their everyday lives, not noticing us. Not meaning they ignore us completely though.

  • L. B. Mek

    try thinking of anxiety, as your personal defence mechanism - similar to fear,
    then attempt to excavate exactly what it is that's triggering your need to defend yourself,
    this process won't be a short-cut solution, but it will change that limiting perception of anxiety, so that now you're looking at anxiety as a symptom of something that you need to address and in that journey to finding a root cause 'reasoning/explanation' for your condition, you will surely come to understand that anxiety can be conditioned - over time, into a relatively secondary presence in your life...
    just some words to help guide you away from thinking that anxiety has some inescapable hold over you, it doesn't, you can prevail!
    if necessary seek 'qualified' help as well,
    there is no excuse for 'living with it':
    when you can 'do something about it'...
    thanks for sharing dear Poet,

  • FredPeyer

    Evangaline, I don't have anxiety, but after reading your very well written 'Letter to anxiety' I understand at least a little bit how it must feel. I do hope you can defeat it!



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