pressures consuming breath

drowning in my life’s current,gasping for air tryin to stay above surface-i swear the lurking creatures in my soul r pulling down my shirt tails-n the murky water is blueing my focus,i know i’m sinking further cause i can see my closin curtains-i hope by hurling myself into every wave head first,ill drink in a taste of real purpose-the whole world is full of possers n serpents-this land is supposed to b free,but more n more i see people in defeat-throwing cole to feed the furnace-burnin from broken promises,it hurts to believe so i turn the cheek to ignore the church’s sermons-wit everything i’m worth i’ll hold on to whatever feels normal-even if it’s poison n terminal-chasein the bottom of a bottle of burbon-emotionally frozen from coping wit drugs,i know for certain the hole in my chest is permanent-it’s affirmative i have to terminate any relationship determined to barrie me-how u gonna flake out ur first opportunity to carry me-u can’t even do what’s necessary,so y would i want u for anything momentary-