i fucking love you

I fucking love you,

But I won't try.

Promises are bullshit.

I can't wait around for you to get me high.

I made you promise me,

But you didn't care.

It was so easy for you to break it.

A call from you was way too rare.

How hard was it to hang out?

To hug me, tell me you love me, anything?

What I asked for was not hard to deliver.

To you, was I just a fling?

How did I still love you,

When you treated me like shit?

It didn't matter, your presence enough,

Made me unbelievably happy I'll admit.

I shared parts of me

That I wouldn't have shared with anyone else.

A side of me no one else could see.

Now it just feels like you used me for that.

You made a promise.

So why was it so easy to break?

I gave you all my time because you asked me to.

You just so easily left me to shake.

You made a commitment.

So why was it so easy to leave?

I stayed because you asked me to.

You just so easily left me to grieve.

You said you meant it when you said you loved me.

So why was it so easy to lose me?

I trusted you because you asked me to.

You just so easily lost feelings.

I wish we would've had equal feelings.

Whether that meant we were both crushed,

Or both okay without each other.

Either way, I don't want this to be hushed.

I wish you would've understood my pain.

Whether that meant you were there for me,

Or hurt because you hurt me.

Either way, I fucking love you.