My love lost

I lost myself in you and I’m afraid that I’ll never be the same again. You broke me in every way possible and I hate you for that. It feels like you didn’t tear down my walls to get to know the me behind my trauma and issues but to break me down and tear my heart in two. I trusted you and I let you in farther than anyone before and I regret it because the pain is too great and I know I’m not strong enough to pick myself up from this place where you dropped me, not yet anyway. Want to know what sucks the most though? It’s that I still love you despite all the heartache and pain you caused me to endure. I still feel every ounce of love that you left behind in my beating heart and even though I could never forgive you for hurting me like this I will always love and care for you as I’ve always done because even though my heart is broken you’ll always be with me.