Go Faster

Don't stop until I'm full, until I can't take anymore. Pull me until I break. I meet the same feeling everyday. The pain leaves me breathless, almost wishing I could sleep forever. I slip into dreams and sing about the oceans I created, captivated by the lonely feeling of being awake in the sombre hours of the night. I drink until I pass out, I tell myself to go faster. I don't want to remember the burden of life, I want to live in the moment and take the risk. I want to feel the rain falling from the sky. There's something about living on the edge that makes me feel free, that makes me feel happy. I've tried, but I can't quite capture the moment again. Those times are long gone. So I sit here, remembering. Telling myself to go faster, telling myself to not look back. I fall from heights I can't understand, submerged in the darkness. I can see the other side, so I tell myself to go faster. I can't seem to slow down. Race me to the hills, the border of my anthem. Catch me when I fall, it's inevitable. I can't hold on for much longer, I'm tired of the insomnia. I'm tired of the nostalgia eating me alive. I'm crippled by the ache, the pain that echoes through my body. I was looking at my phone, those pictures I took long ago, and I can't understand why it has a hold over me. I have so much to live for, so I go faster. I look for you in every magazine, in every dream, but I never see you on my path. I wonder where you went, how you feel in the night. Do you ever think of me? I hold you close in my thoughts, praying we will meet again. I believe in fate. Swing your pendulum to me, the rocking horse of destiny. Find your balance on the waves, leave flowers on my grave. Know that I done all I could. Know that I tried to win, but sometimes it's better to give in. I assumed you knew what I was thinking. I couldn't have been anymore wrong. All I wanted to do was have fun, but now I can't relate to anyone. The bullet is stuck in me, the silver between my teeth. You make me wild. You make the pink of my blushing cheeks prosper. So I go faster, I turn the page. The rose dies, life begins. So I go faster into the night.