My Heaviest Suitcase Contains My Heart


Having regrets
makes the road forward hard to walk
the mountain ever so high above the clouds impossible to climb

Acceptance is knowing that what has been my burden
can now be blown away with the wind of change
laid to rest in a quiet place

Letting go of what was, to look forward to what will be

Forgiveness, for myself and for others
aware of what has been, knowing that it’s too late
to turn back this deceitful clock, that tricked me
Unable to travel back in time
to the moment before it all changed forever

Ever strengthening my mind to just let it all go
Mourning for the final time

Saying goodbye with a gentle kiss
In the hope I will once again

Be able to love myself.


  • Goldfinch60

    Very emotive write Teddy but she will be forever with you and you will be together again.


    • Teddy.15

      Thank you Andy, it's been almost 10 years and some days I still want to smash plates on the floor. X

    • orchidee

      A poignant write Teddy.
      I had similar experience, even though I was only in a nearby room at a hospital.

      • Teddy.15

        I'm so deeply sorry to hear that orchidee. X

        • orchidee

          Thanks Teddy.

        • Accidental Poet

          WOW! You blew me away with this one Teddy. All I can say is...WOW! ; )

          • Teddy.15

            Dear A.P for unknown reasons I knew this would touch you. I thank you for your encouraging wow, it's my true pleasure to share with you.

            • Accidental Poet

              Yes Teddy, this did really hit homer for me. First because I do have many regrets of my own, and have been thinking of a poem about it for a month or two. Secondly, I never got to meet, talk and say good-bye to my birthmother as she past 5 years before I found her. She never got to hear me tell her that I loved her. It took me about 3 years to get over her death once I found her. But I've been to her grave and I know that she knows I've been there. An excellent write here. ; )

            • 2 more comments

            • dusk arising

              Reading your pieces title today my immediate thoughts were - thats a contrast to my heart for now it is light and free from the heavyness of yesteryear.
              How glad I was to read your words of unburdening yourself. I'm pretty sure you already love yourself and how much more that love will grow and reward you is out there somewhere.

              How our poetic words lift and ease our burdens is clearly seen here on MPS.

              • Teddy.15

                Dear Dusk, I wouldn't be the poet nor person I am today without every last experience I've had. I thank you for your gorgeous review, I hope I help to enlighten. X

              • Fay Slimm.

                The recognition that we could have done better niggles so deeply yet time can settle our feelings of guilt as this verse so expertly describes - - with you in trying to let the past ride in its own errors and letting love in again for self dear Teddy - thank you for this needed reminder that regrets are the heaviest of all to carry.

                • Teddy.15

                  Dear Fay thank you for reading between the lines and recognising what i have said. it means so much.

                • rosiedm

                  Sorry that you experienced not saying goody bye to your mother but that would not of what you would have said at all no body says Goodbye but I know what you mean by that term.. being there ... while she leaves us ..and as my ill.mother lay leaving us behind I nipped out to get a few things for my father who planned to sit an all nighter a as we took our turns my mother passed on just with my father beside her it was as if she wanted it that.way and I too have said why did I leave why didn't I stay . Sometimes these things just go the way they meant to ..Dont regret something that isn't any ones fault. 7 years on and I still miss her she made me who I am a mother is something else.. wisdom wise.words
                  I still cry for the loss of her .
                  But I feel her with me in my heart which isn't heavy at all.😘

                  • Teddy.15

                    Thank you with all my heart for sharing, truth is I've lost a few loved ones in this way and I agree it was just meant to be. Of course I know it wasn't my fault but I just think if only. Thank you for sharing your story with me.

                  • L. B. Mek

                    'Acceptance is knowing that what has been my burden
                    can now be blown away with the wind of change
                    laid to rest in a quiet place

                    Letting go of what was, to look forward to what will be'..
                    (I'm sorry for your loss, dear poet
                    I'm sure, She is resting peacefully
                    knowing that Her life's legacy
                    shines ever-bright, within that child
                    She nurtured: so lovingly...)
                    thank you for Choosing to share, my friend
                    and remember
                    to smile as often as your eyes, leak
                    so your Angel: can see
                    that your stumbling along
                    just fine!

                  • Teddy.15

                    Such a beautiful review thank you dear L.B

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