Alive

Dogs bark 
Their discontent 
As I wallow 
In my empty 
And contemplate
The viper 
Within 

What if?
I am 
So much Less
Than 
Ordinary?

What if?
I am 
Worse 
Than 
The crowd

Silence goads
Its empty vastness 
As I drown 
In the toxins 
And relish 
The darkness 
Inside 

What if?
I am 
Gone
Before 
The birds?

What if?
I am 
Sacrificed 
Beneath 
The stars 

Dust dives 
Crashing into possibilities 
As I fight 
Against my demons 
And cherish 
That 

I am

Alive