The dopest drug

No matter what i do it never feels right 
And yet there is nothing left
Everything is already written
Everythig already said 

The dopest drug 
Is always another person 
Do you belive me
Or do you need to live through that lesson?
 

Or do you already know what it's like to go 
Without a fix 
Without him or her
Without the source of your kicks
 

No new feelings just their clones  
Broken hearts and broken bones 
Same old melody same old tones
All too familiar sticks and stones

Do you cry or do you straight up bleed
There is a cinema of memories
Please take a seat
It was you who directed these movies
 

And now where is your cast
No one else wants to remember
You're the last 
No one else wants to live in the past

And why would they 
Keep on keeping on 
As they say
But i sense something sinister at play
    
   
Something dark and urgent 
Something inside 
That thing you don't like
That what you try to hide
 

What that might be
Just look inside your soul and see
It is in you as well as me
That old long lost key
 

To a door which we left to burn
And now it's far too late 
Your life has it's turn
As well as your fate
  

And do you even want to go
Through that gate
Aren't you scared that all you gonna find 
Is meaningless hate
   

I'll give you some time to contemplate
But don't waste a single minute
There might not be enough time
To kill it
 

Have you heard my conscience 
That terrible sound 
Only the things that are lost 
Can ever be found
 

So maybe one day 
Even i will be saved
From never having
What i always craved