Another night alone

I'm confused as I search my thoughts,
we were happy on our beachfront walks.
The breeze would play gently with your hair,
I would fight my urge to sit and stare.
I enjoyed that touch as you took my hand,
and my tummy would tickle when we laid upon the sand.

I wanted you so very much,
and with your strong arms I hungered for your touch.

We would talk about the past, then moving on,
these days, how much I loved, no pain or wrong.
I dreamed how life would be, all smiles, laughs and love,
like a made to measure perfectly fitted glove.

But although I'm happy in this space,
I know it won't last and the day will end with an embrace.
You will pull me close and hug me tight,
and I will breath a breath of pure delight.
This moment, this exact moment, I'd hold you forever,
and I'd stay like this always, always together.

But no, forever is not for us, and you will turn away from me,
Open your eyes you foolish girl, do you not see?
He cares, yes I know, but I want more,
I want the romance, the sweep me across the dance floor.
I want to feel your heart beat next to mine as one,
I need you to need me, to know this is where you belong.

But no, it's there that hole, always in the way,
that knowing, that reality, that you will never stay.
Pockets of time, is all time will let,
Some long, some short, but it's all I get.
I don't have the pleasure of you coming home,
always ends the same, another night alone.