No Joke Jo...

You think you know me...? 

But I know you don't know me at all...

In fact you never have had a clue... 

That's plain to see You have absolutely no idea about me...

Its no joke... Jo...

All I've proven with all that I do, still is never enough for you...

You love to poke, to have a dig & always just talk about you...  

Its no joke Jo...

Its no joke how you say all these nasty things about me...

I was evil, I recall...

That gene jumped straight to me...

With no prove at all... 

Things that didn't come from my past...

They come from yours... Isn't that funny...

Daddy issues I've heard you say...

Its no joke Jo... Nasty is you, I'm nothing like you...

It's not what a mum's suppose to do...

Its no joke now mummy...

Stop telling lies...

Tell the truth its me you despise...

Without any cause or logic in my eyes, for I can't understand the reasons why...

It must be you, How could it be me,

I was just born with no memory in my tiny mind...

I didn't plan this...

But yet I was too devils spawn...

When did u notice or see the evil in me...?

Its no joke Jo, its no joke... 

You say you can read me like a book & that you know me inside out...

Its no joke Jo, its no joke... 

How deep do you wanna poke?  

You say that you love me...

But have resented me all along, the 1st opportunity...

I was long gone... 

All the wrong in you...

Its no joke how you made me feel insane,

Seven years old & emotionally broken with no understanding of why I wasn't loved by you...

Hate me was all you could do...  

We both know the issue wasn't me it was just you...

You made me mad, you made me cry,

you made me your reason why...

For years & years I felt I wasn't worthy of ever being loved...

I hated myself...

You made me think I was evil & was born wrong... 

I struggled with all your imprints that you gave me...

But that doesn't matter no more...  

You made sure that I didn't belong...

You made sure that by 11 years old I was gone... 

Its no joke jo... Its no joke... 

Its no joke now I finally see & understand that my past came from your hand & when I ain't around you...

My soul cracks on peacefully...

Its no joke how funny I can be... I'm quite the comedian actually...

How all my issues you say I make & fake, all that you swear I am the devils mistakes...

Seem to disappear as quick as the sand-man when your not around...

Its no joke jo, its no joke...

Could you please explain this shit to me..?. 

To this day you still try & take bits away...  

Pretend your my mum & my friend,

but every road is always a dead end... 

Its no joke jo, its no joke how you raise me up, then just let me fall, 

Whenever your lonely that's when you call...

Its no joke jo you really are mean & nasty...

Everyone gets a back lash of you... 

You never have nice things to say...

God jo, its no joke why are you so nasty ungrateful & mean...?

Why are you this way...? 

So 2-faced, so untrue, selfish you are, bitter too...

Its no joke jo, its no joke... There's no helping you... 

I don't know what I ever did, but I don't care no more about being your kid...

Its no joke its no joke I no longer class you as my mum...

So long Jo...

I'm done... 

I don't ever wanna see or hear from you again...

Its no joke Jo, that you done me wrong...

Its no joke Jo, you've been laughing life long...

Its no joke Jo, that 1 day you will regret treating me that way...

Its no joke Jo how sad you will become,

When you realise you don't have no1 that was quite like me...

A daughter that didn't care about the past really,

If only you'd just chose to be a loving mum instead of being a nasty one with an evil tongue...

When all truth be told, when your lies are heavy...

Its no joke Jo...

Its no joke I forgave you already...

Along time ago... 

Its no joke that its so funny your to toxic for me to be around mummy...  

I wish you well...

Finally I can smile...