My only wish

Another cigarette lited up 
Another line typed down 
Another puff sucked in
Another thought sent out

There's this big black shard inside my soul 
Preventing me from being whole
Instead where should be a person there's a hole

 
When it comes to so-called after life
Blissful nonexistence is my only wish
And if they do find me near the blooded knife 
Then know i was glad to perish