My Acceptance...

It always goes wrong, I shouldn't have been surprised when as per it went wrong again for the 50th time... 

Although I see it coming...

I thought we was passed all that...?

At least I know now, it will never be...

I'm done with you constantly hurting me...

When the truth be told I do very little wrong... 

 I still don't & never will belong...

These bridges I have to burn to make sure I don't return...

I've walked in vain the road to try, & try time & time again...

The road to shame, I still play your game & always end up getting surly burnt...

Charred to the core, you'd think I would've learnt by now...

I suppose it doesn't matter now, I've gave myself the dressing down & vowed never to yearn, only to learn, not to repeatedly be a clown...

All that's left for me to do is forget everything I thought I once knew about us, about you...

I accepted my past, & how it was you that took me away from everything I once knew, warmth, love & family...

I learned to let go, not hold on so, making room in my life for you to be...

Now that can no longer be, you don't deserve the chances I gave so free, for me only to always end with so much sadness & misery...

I'm happier & no longer feel drained by the bull shit you still maintain...

I'm at peace with myself once again...

I always felt better when there was no you around...

I know it sounds crazy, right.. for sure...

But it wasn't me that was keeping score...

I just wanted a mum who I could love & adore, simply that, no more...

& in return you'd be grateful & acknowledge what & who I was, To see who I am...

Me a person that had fuck all to gain letting you in time & time again...

You must love living in misery & pain...

Everyday is nothing new, it's always the same drama its true...

You drain the life out of me, time & time again...

For many years you've reeled me in, had your fun, then out I go, dumped on road...

Once again it's my fault, me you don't wanna know...

Groundhog days of picking up my pieces, always being nothing more than shit you'll never adore or want to explore...

But now those days are well & truly done...

I no longer need or wish to be apart of you...

 Fuck all this family shit, I don't need to belong to be someone strong...

I face my battles testing me everyday, I'm not gonna let you lead me a stray...

I'm done talking, I'm walking away...

You done this not me, I hope you'll be very happy...

You've lost me your daughter that's for sure...

Never to speak, never to seek, never to find...

I'm one of a kind...

I'm done being so weak, Goodbye & fair well,

I'm off to sleep, awake a new & never have another thought of you...