I am 45 years old

I have never imagined I’m 45 years old,

Older than my respected artists and philosophers today

May die anytime

How did others win against fear?

“It” makes me don’t think about clearly sky

What am I afraid of?

You know, a lot of flowers around the world

Alcohol, tobacco, drugs and excessive sex, etc…something like that

Is God a kind of such flowers?

God makes me see sweet dreams?

Why are there brilliant flowers in infinite field?

Why does wind from the sea feel so comfortable?

Why do I pray to the dawn?

Maybe for burning out all of flowers…

Is there anything left in the naked land?

Do you call “Hope” it?

Really am I alone?

Is true God that makes me believe such?

Is snake evil, really?

Is woman evil, truly?

Is not man, do you believe this thesis?

Do you believe God cursed the earth and made man  is like slave because of his sin?

Just living is so hard…I understand it using 45 years

Learn at highly university, work at good company, make money, get married, make children, be rich, sometimes visit shrines, temples, or churches and take a bite of philosophy, maybe is it normal life?

But cannot satisfy such life like a drop in the ocean,

What remains this nothing in me?

Am I greedy?

What is meaning of our life?

Talk about it, you will laugh

We have our own mission each, don’t us?

We continue to fight and are honored

Because of sin carved into us?

God makes us see sweet dreams?

What remains when I’m alone in front of “Eternity”?

What are true treasures?

I’m in fog and darkness of deep forest, as if the most advanced modern city in the world, and only walk one step and one step

There are always clouds in the sky

When will the sun appear?

God is always watching me

Because he’s free

For sure, anyway I will regret anytime

Because I’m greedy

“Beggars, you are blessed,

Kingdom of God is yours”

Because God's life is infinite and fills the emptiness

As of heat be transmitted to the cold

Why do I pray to the dawn?

Burn out all of brilliant flowers,

A wind is through naked land

Birds sing their newly learned songs

Sun illuminates everything on the earth

Is not man, do you believe this thesis?