Conquistador

Coyote

Once, long ago
I gazed upon
the world with
conformity’s eyes
and found it absurd

And I cursed existence
and my fellow man

I built a wall to defend
the tattered remnants
of the sanity I perceived
I still possessed

I built a wall that quickly
became a desolate prison
standing cold in the face
of forgiveness and love

I ignored beauty’s gentle bliss

I insulted love in the name
of an antiquated morality

Oh spirits
Oh demons
Oh harbingers
of what lies
beyond
perception

It was to you
that I entrusted
my salvation

It was to you that
I prayed in expectation
of deliverance

I begged for naught
but a cessation of being
to relieve the nightmare
of existence

In desperation
I grasped the reins
of intolerance

I drew the sword
of superficial righteousness
carving a swath of condemnation
through the ranks of my brothers
for the sake of a disapproving God

I wounded virtue in the name of heaven

I exchanged reason for faith

I threw compassion to the dogs of indifference

What pain has my existence
brought my fellow man?

My path to salvation lies
hidden among the bones
of those I once held dear

Heaven should not
exact such remuneration,
for paradise cannot be
purchased with the blood
of hatred and the
tears of martyred tolerance

I will not kneel before
such an altar

Not again...

Never again

  • Author: Coyote (Offline Offline)
  • Published: August 7th, 2021 11:37
  • Comment from author about the poem: Harkens back to a time when I fully embraced organized religion and alienated all those closest to me.
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • User favorite of this poem: HannahElisabeth.
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Comments3

  • HannahElisabeth

    Hi Coyote,
    Yet again, another great work.

    Makes me sad that I wrote a multiple page poem somewhere in a now lost notebook that shared the same sentiment... Especially "I will not kneel before
    such an altar".

    Thank you for the reminder, I've been meaning to recreate that poem for a while now.

    Beautifully written my friend.

    • Coyote

      Thank you most kindly Hannah🙂

      • Coyote

        And when you do recreate that poem, I'd love to read it🙂

      • 2 more comments

      • Doggerel Dave

        I don't know why all you unhappy folks have such trouble with religion, belief in in god....just look - there's no one, nothing there.........

      • Quijote

        Can fully appreciate the sentiments you so passionately expressed here. To me I found that mysticism( ie direct communion with God) is the common factor that connects all religious experience.



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