Not present

I take in a deep breath to stop thinking 

I’m still empty as the bottle, though I stopped drinking. 

Time flashes before my eyes it hurts so much I try to stop blinking.

I have smiled in the country I have smiled in the city 

I will hide behind this smile and bury my self pity as long as I’m surrounded by others that are truly with me.

though I feel defeated, I show face and take away dark clouds leaving sunshine and green grass in its place.

seems as if happiness isn’t even real. 

We fight for a life we find ideal.

But did it matter even if I achieve Im a walking void no matter what’s behind the curtain to be revealed. 

The fact is I’m not happy and I won’t bother for anyone’s help cause no one is.

If this offends maybe one day I’ll ask for you to forgive 

I’m losing my mind trying to get of piece of mine 

The farther I go I lose track of time and it’s far too late too look back or you’ll be left behind. 

I wanted a break from reality but realized I make what’s real we all do and now my heart is broken crumbs. Being licked off the dessert plate of selfless lost souls who are just as numb. 

I don’t what to do but keep moving it’s getting darker these days my candle is running out of flame.