More Questions... Than Answers...

I'm feeling... I'm reeling...

I'm seeing, but I've lost my insight...

I'm hearing something that just don't sound right...

I'm struggling to sleep at night....

I'm struggling to speak to get a word out...

Shouting at the top of my lungs...

Why cant I this figure it out...

My lips move but I make not one sound...

I'm trying my hardest to hold it all down...

To be unpredictable not to start a fight...

But going un-heard & I'm not being seen... 

I'm not in between, I'm not in a herd,

Its frustrating for me, its driving me mad...

It sure is absurd... I feel so sad...

Its makes me wanna be bad, So I can take away my sad...

I gladly let you think of me bad, Never want to show you my sad...

That's my hurt, My pain, not for you to gloat...

I don't wanna pity-party, A nice cup of tea...

I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me...

I want to walk with my head held high & say out loud 'My oh My'... 

I live to tell another tale, & thank you god for seeing me though...

I'm truly grateful for all I've came to be...

I'm just sad, so sad to be in this struggle...

My life in its muddle with so much pouring rain...

I'm cold & I'm lonely once again...

My rainbow I'm striving to seek...

My feet feel bleak with every puddle I walk though...

But this is life what can I do...?

I want to be strong... I'm not a victim...

I know I'm not perfect, & I know I'm not wrong...

Its not all in my head, its not in my mind,

I'm not insane, crazy or blurred...

I'm not being extra on top...

Remember its me that doesn't want to flop, or drop...

I'm not angry so much either you see... I'm actually really hurt...

Everything I done was in all vain, trying to fix us once again...

I want justice to be served...

I want to know that my lesson was well learned...

Not go on to another groundhog day...

Repeater, Repeater you just stay away...

Just as you as well ground hog day...

One day the table's god willing will turn, & my inner peace will return,

& I'll be grateful for the opportunity not to go there ever again...

Lets not drive a good girl insanely sane again...