I am sorry but......

Now is the not the right time,

I Should have known that now is not the right time,

Look at you now, probably forgetting the conversations we had

Then here I am, still constantly having you on my mind.

So much so that i wonder if i am really going mad

Didn't know simple texts could make you smile

Didn't know simple texts could make you worry

Didn't know simple texts could make you regain hope

Didn't know simple texts could also make you lose it that easily

Should I have done that, should I have done this, 

My friends would always say I am too much of a overthinker

But as it turns out, everything is just as what I have predicted

From ‘hey’ with a bunch of Ys, 

to conversations left with no reply

Trying again would never not be cool,

But I fear that I would once again end up a fool.

I know that it'll never be the same,

Especially when I hear your name.

All the could haves, all the should haves start flowing back in,

And as hard as I try to laugh it off, 

Just know that it is because I don't want to show it anymore.

Don’t get me wrong, we weren’t even together,

But the fact that that is true just never fails to faze me.

I thought we were close, I thought for some rhyme or reason I had it, 

but I should have know that now is not the right time

Hope you’re doing okay, hope you won’t be stressed out 

Can't say the same for yourself but i miss the conversations we had,

The calls we had where we frantically switched off our cameras when our parents walked in

To return to that time would definitely put a smile on my face 

And get me out of this stupid sad phase