Twin Soul

I see the signs and tried to look away
There's no way this could be real
Never believed in fate and all that cliché 
But the idea does make life surreal
You just feel like home to me
As if I have known you before
From a past life? 
Real or not, fuck logic
The synchronicities are hard to ignore
Tell me I'm not just going crazy 
Do you not see how much we mirror each other?
How can something be so obvious 
And be so vague at the same time?

In my dark night of the soul
You arrived right in time 
You may not know it 
But the light and clarity
You brought that day
Have set me free 
From matters that burdened me
It goes to show how quickly I can move on
From one fixation to another 
And if they were just fixations
How can I tell if this is real
Or I'm just back on my bullshit

There's just something about you
And the colour blue
Among other things I associate with you
You speak to my soul through music
And telepathic messages 
Or is it all in my head?
You run through my thoughts
Living in my head rent free
I'm feeling different kinds of things
But I just couldn't let that show, you see
'Cause how can anyone feel this way so early?

Don't you see how we're aligned?
Or is it laughable just how I'm 
Mistaking congeniality and lust for intimacy 
Romanticizing this mundane reality
Is this all just a stupid fantasy?
How can I tell if it's real affection
And not just my chemically imbalanced brain 
Manifesting an unhealthy obsession

I used to enjoy our exchanges
But it has now become a bit frustrating
You take up so much of my headspace
Back and forth, hot and cold air
You like to show up out of nowhere
Then vanish the next minute or two
Mind games and mixed signals
Please, I have other things to do

I don't know what you really want
So fuck it, just tell me 
Are we so alike that we keep projecting
The same avoidant energy
Perhaps you have so much on your plate
Are you overwhelmed like me too?
But I do want answers now
Before I make this affair my drug
And get withdrawals from the idea of you

I am quite terrified of what you'll have to say
But I had to get this off my chest
If you tell me now that this is a mistake
I swear I will be fine
I just need this torment to end
And would rather be rejected 
Than be stuck in this endless loop
Of restlessness and overthinking
Waiting impatiently for nothing

I know I could stay silent and just wait
For in silence, there's no rejection or conflict 
But the months passing feel like eternity now
So here's me taking a leap of faith 
Time blindness has consumed me
Paralyzed by uncertainty 
I just need to breathe, then move forward
Whether towards or away from you

I'm a mess I haven't been sleeping
Will definitely regret this in the morning
Sinking in bed I had too much to drink
Tell me, should I just forget it?
Tell me if for you, it's nothing more than lust 
You do seem so hung up on your past
Thanks though for the momentary bliss
And whatever else comes of this
If anything 
At least I feel not as dead inside