yellowrose

Disconnection hurts

Disconnection hurts like the grey cloud in the sky who truly wishes to be white 

she’s so grey and it feels so wrong 

The distance from the wanted white needed cloud , so tiring 

tears live helplessly within the grey cloud who truly wishes to be white 

who craves to feel connected to self , to feel like herself , because she has that right 

 

the grey cloud in the sky cries 

she cries because she hates the loneliness within 

because of a disconnection she never once even asked for 

disliking the distance from self 

the way she writes words but somehow it feels like someone else is placing their hand from pen to paper 

although truly it is her 

 

disconnection , a grey cloud crying in a Misty sky 

dreamy and distanced from self 

wanting to be the white cloud , wanting to feel the connection to self 

because she always has the right to feel like herself and to feel connected to who she is 

 

it’s not even here now as I write these words of wanting connection onto a piece of paper 

because it doesn’t feel like me writing , it feels like someone else is writing from pen to paper 

Comments1

  • rebmasters

    'tears live helplessly within the grey cloud'

    What a beautiful line. But the grey clouds are just as important, beautiful & necessary as the white...even though it hurts. A lovely poem x

    • yellowrose

      Thankyou Becky .., it does hurt . I don’t feel disconnection helps at all .. just makes me feel sad and lonely and I get angry at anything which affects my dissociation . I believe I have the right to feel completely like me .,, and to feel connected to me , I felt very sad whilst writing this I think by writing it I was trying to connect to me and maybe I did .,, ? Atleast I was expressing my upset anyhow ..



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