Survival mode

I don’t want to die

I just want love ,love and  peace before I rest

Love your self they say

It ain’t enough

I say

The guilt the grief the struggle the pain

It ain’t  esay

It is tough I say life is roughly clearlay

I guess I’m asking too much but all I need is love , love to thrive

I’m tired of struggling , trying to survive

This tumultuous life

Everyday it’s sumn else I just want to be alright

It’s not like I’m weak

Everyday i kill my self trying to fight

But These demons keep stalking me

I’m at war for my life

Talking mental physical and emotional strife

They say stay positive

Close to God

Pray before you eat or lay your head to sleep

That all you need

God I seek

Religion I don’t believe

I need to know thyself that’s what I think

In my dreams God speaks to me

I am spiritual

My heart it bleeds

The truth I need

Got to make sense to me

Can’t tell me just anything

So I’m searching for what can’t be seen

Connection to the divine

Please come guide my mind

I need to hear your voice

I don’t know what to say but

I just woke up and

I don’t want to feel like this

I’m sorry I’m just trying to get my life together

I’m not going to front

Like I now it all

I don’t know what to do

I’m not trying to make you feel great

I’m just speaking truth

I’m okay with that I just got out of the woods and I want to get on the right path