Pawprints and Stepping Stones

After the glittering euphoria fades like sea smoke                                              

My body overflows with seeping regret                            

That sticky ache gnawing at my bruised insides                                              

Replenished by the sky's waterfall

I am crystallised in every way, elusive                                                                                  

In this crescendo I can't escape, Saturn                                                                                        

With beady raven eyes and a loaded gun                                                                            

Wishing I could take away your pain                                          

Wishing I could feel something real, all day                                        

I sit at the window alone with my thoughts                        

And a landslide of memories of what I've been through                            

And I spend my nights wondering what do you do?                        

How do you fill long hours? Do your silver scars speak of my name            

Like the fire in my brain dreams about slipping away                                                    

To a deserted coast, a deserted shore? 

You look at me like a shadow, a man stopping me from falling                    

I need directions, this city never sleeps                                

I've been awake for so long I'm running on dreams                  

Wondering bubbles underwater, I don't answer the phone                      

I turn off the lights, honey melting on my tongue                      

I feel the slow burn, the intrinsic flow of the pendulum                  

Crimson pools and evergreen, drinking from fountains                                                                

With no chance of surviving I left a note by your bed                                                    

Rhythms in my blue veins, wrapped up in cellophane                                                                      

A mute veil of wonder drapes over me                                                                          

Pearl dewdrops, thinking about stars and moons                                                                        

You never talk to me anymore                                                                              

Changed by the years, cold breaths in violet lights                                                              

Open ears, drowning in every possible way                                                                              

I am the same as I was, no reason at all to be here                                                                

But was created by the sky, sunlight echoing through                                                            

In a movie screen, bones untreated, you cut through me                                            

Timeless gravity bereaved by your silence                                                                                  

Pink blush, immortal swirls in a different mind                                                 

Pink cheeks, potion rich with all your filthy diamonds, shit                                                           

I dream about it

Upside down in a psychedelic illusion, I vomit                                                                    

Pixie magic squid ink                                                                                                  

Eyes closed but I want to blink, and now I'm feeling                                    

Predictable like snow when it melts away.